the smell

She came, and then I smell something
like roses, like lilies and like a blossom cherries.
And there, when she started gazing in my eyes,
Felt like my knees weak, melting and drowning.

Can`t anyone let me free anymore?
Can`t anyone pull me out from here?
Can`t anyone break this chain on my feet?

The smell lingered on where I stand
Blended in every drop of sweats
Crawling in my blood

Adrenalin flows in every inch of my veins,
I knew that from the shivered jaw.

Those eyes pierce my heart
Although it still beating like a drum
I could hear the sound in my chest
like the steps of running horses.

The girl turns around
the pink-white kimono’s girl turned
like nothing happened.

She walks away
left me breathless
under a "raining" Sakura`s tree.

*idea apun
*hint :: the painted veil + memoir of a geisha
*help / repair / credit to safina (kapasitor)

tari santun TUHAN

Jasad ini menyantun Tuhan
menyambut sahut, berbalas takut.
Jauh, padang pasir terasing
dimahukan aku sendiri, menari
aku menari terus.

Maka, kaki ini menyambut tanah
Titip langkah persis pasir; gigil.
Kiri kanan dirapit jejak berbaki
masih, dialun sampai ribut datang
tinggal kerdil ini, dengan bayang.

Tari ini mengalun berkat
menyambung lirik selawat, biar gagap
mencari ma`thurat atas pentas kontang.
Ujilah, takkan henti, belum serik lagi
menari terus bawah pepasir terbang
rentak kontang sebelah oasis jalang.

Semangat ini kadang tergugah
fatamorgana selalu jadi intaian
belum pernah jadi lirik atau larik
tarian ini kosong, bayang meraung
tetap tahu, rimba bercambah di ATAS,

Tarian ini menyapa Tuhan
bukit dan batu kadar jadi tamu
melihat pasir dan aku bersatu
menyiul neraka dalam lagu lecur
bisa, persis kaktus melekat terus
luka, jadi daunnya yang halus
aku, dihujan pasir, dimandi getir.

Aku ini bertakluk hamba
biar mentari tak bersemanyam
biar hujan terus mendiam
demi syurga yang diidam
dimahukan aku menari
aku menari terus.

apun
minggu awal mei-2008
mencari TUHAN di bumi kosong


komen
tari santun TUHAN di kapasitor
tari santun TUHAN di GKLN

rapuh

kapasitor versi

Rapuh,
telap susuk keributan
hilang akas keserabutan,
rapuh, bagai reput benang,
dari lelap taut-paut baldu,

sungguh, tenang enggan,
pada turut-turut gagap,
tetas-lelas rapuhnya kecil,
disentap langsung pecah,
derainya, tak tinggal sisa,

you can

you can go if u want to

but dont ever turn back to me

you can fly if u have to

but dont ever fall down to here again

kawan [bebelan]

memerlukan rakan, yang mampu mendengar, dan sanggup memberi tangan, saat jauh...tika jatuh... frenz, is to be hold, and to be support, kawan, mampu memberi, dan menanggung, rasa sayang, friend is "loving but not couple", sahabat, adalah orang yang ada di sisi, saat sepi dan happy, sahabat, tak kan mati, walau bertikam lidah, sampai mencengkam jiwa, rindu saat hilang, sayang saat terang

i lOve yOU

i loVe yoU forever...last n ever..
wiTh moOn liGht shadOw my pRopose..
and The wiNd as mY woRd..
i`ll gIve yOU the beaUtiFuLL raInboW as my rIng..
acCept me..hoNEy..
as One oF uR fInger to fEeel ur tOUch...
as oNE of uR haiR to hanGing WitH u ALwaYS..
aS oNE oF uR BeAr..To slEep wiTH yOu everyniGHt..
as oNE of uR bONe..tO sticK wiTH yOU foRever...
aS oNe oF uR cloTHes tO hug uR bODy evErysecoNd.
...and lEt me be oNE of uRs...forevEr... toNIght...

reMeMber [english]

remember this day,
last meet on feet,
cry on a bad beat,

wish,
you never loose in my hug,
keep tight,
and keep ur lips wet when been kissed,

hope,
to see you next around,
when we are drowning in missing each other,
struggle to swim,
and keep love breathing,

every night,
when you are sleeping,

I`ll fly to your bed,
and warm you,
kiss ur cheeks,
play u hair,
love u my dear,

ByE[english]

keEp siLEnce...
till tHe raIn stOp...
kEep siLence...
tIll yOu slEpt...

kEeP siLEnce...
tIll yOu fiNalLY rEAlisE...

rEaliSe..yOu shOuln`t bE heRe...
lAy oN mY bed...KeeP eyEs clOSe...
JUst pLEaSE gO aWay...

rEAlISE...you shOuln`t bE thEre....
InsIDe n DeEp hEre...keeP liNggEr In mY hEart...
Just pleaSe KeeP aWay...

thE raIn...
NoT TalKIng To mE....
nOr To leT yOu hUggIng mE..
tOUcH mE lIke a bAby...
LicK mE lIke StRAwbErRY...

dOn`t ever play lOve WitH me...
YoU wEre jUST fAt smElLY pIgGY...


tHe RAin...wIlL stOp..
anD..I wIll nOr lOngEr sIlenCe...